Jus came back from Section Assault & Ambush Training… Damn shag and tired… the best part I like is igniting the trip flare and it looks real beauty. Like fireworks… wooah~ its brightness is equivalent 150,000 candles light… 2 more field camp to go and would be more relax man.. It's really heartwarming for Sgt Najib to sms me and ask how's my training going. To know that he still care about his ex-recruits, to know that he's still giving his encouragement. From the short conversation we had, he encouraged me to proceed to Advance Section Leading Course and return back to Tekong as instructor. I really wanna be instructor, but the thought of 9D8N outfield camp really put me off… Next week would be having a section live firing for 4D3N again…. Shag….

Given the little time I had during weekend, I've really gave in quite an effort… but something and somewhere still seems to be amiss…. Argh…. Let me be a corporal soon….

Specialist Creed

I am a Specialist of the Singapore Armed Forces

With pride I lead

I shall excel in my field

Ensure the discipline of my men

And their mission readiness

I will overcome adversity

With my fighting spirit

I will defend Singapore

With my life!

How true… defend Singapore with my life… Govt has yet to brainwash me… Maybe Shawn had been brainwashed in OCS, but not me!

Expecting a very shag 3 weeks ahead with field camps. 1^st week would be 3D2N section training. 2^nd week would be 4D3N and dunno what the shit I am going to do… 3^rd week would be the most feared outfield camp in SISPEC, Exercise Grandslam + Exercise Wanderer for 4D3N at Tekong…. NB, sure die one plus no booking out on third week… With pride I lead... Pui!

I know of a girl that is confident,

Yet have the most fragile heart,

And I will do my best to protect it,

And never break her beauty apart

Yap was forced to drop out from SISPEC last week, and I was surprised by it. In BMT, he went through Fit For Instruction Test and he passed it and was eligible for SISPEC. During the first week, I could really see Yap is struggling hard to mange the training and felt that he could not make it. On the second week, he finally made up his mind to persevere and get through BSLC and ironically, his company's OC told him to quit SISPEC. Why? Cos he failed the IPPT Cat Test.

Then for fuck SISPEC lower its entry requirements? When people had finally got the determination to carry on, they simply give a deadly blow to them. What SAF did was giving them a false sense of hope? Why bother to administrate them right to SISPEC , made them sang the SISPEC school song, said the SISPEC creed and then make out of course? This would definitely create a bull whip effect, changing their perspective of NS and National Education. Would making such decision lower down one's integrity and pride? Wouldn't they feel lost out of sudden?

They might have the potential to lead 6 men, the ability to make quick decision and technical knowledge but yet cos they are chubbier than norm trainee, does that mean they have to be out? Why can't SAF design a framework for them so as such they could pass their IPPT, even if the course is longer, they sure would not mind. I am from an 11 section men and among us, there are five obese trainees, including me. And I am the only one manage to pass the Cat Test. So what does that means? I dunno, but I am hoping that the 4 would not be kicked out, cos I had had enough of the biasness view. Who knows maybe the next centuries; there might genocide of obesity citizens so as the respective government can save medical expenses on them.

To me, we are no longer men that are defending the nation, but rather, the puppets of SAF. A lowly paid human puppets.

To Yap, once a bunkmate in Apache PL2 Section 4, buddies for life. If I would be a Sgt in time, I hope that you are my men.